They look so great but feel so fake. I am clueless, please help me by enlightening me....
I have been in that room, and it's not pleasant.
This is where you find yourself, give it time, don't give them away, or destroy them, just put them aside.
CTO's are a genuine part of the Philatelic Journey
Most CTO can reside in a good collection, (example Czechoslovakia)
"Printed on" CTO's are a step too far for me.
I still collect them if they come across my desk, but hold them in some disdain.
Even Australia has "printed on " CTO, they have a story, produced as give away's in childrens packs.
I consider them "Cinderellas" yet the stamp itself is genuine.
Be kind to yourself, it is only a hobby, that will one day leave your possession.