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I can understand your difficulty in seeing the grill on your stamp because it is not well defined. There are several web sites you could go to in order to see well defined grills. May I suggest
ebay. The reason being that you will be able to see stamps with grills varying from nearly undetectable to very well defined. Once on the US stamps page click on 19th Century (Unused or used) and when those are shown enter the word "grill" in the search window.